|She wins at art!|
Oh Lordy, as someone who struggles with fear this really may be an insurmountable challenge choosing one moment. I've actually talked about my struggles with fear several times here on the blog.
Tooth and Nail
PSA: Trail Riding
If you have read those you know that I get scared at wacky nonsensical times. I'm going to talk here about two actually very dangerous and scary times. The first one actually took a very special horse (read Tooth and Nail) to help me recover from and the second I wasn't panicy, just very mindful of how bad it could have been.
I was riding this really rank paint mare for a while. She could buck like none other, we could trot into a fence 3.5' tall and clear it with ease only to land in full on bronco style bucking. Yes, she had been checked out by vets and such, she was so scopey that it seemed worth the effort to attempt to tame her. One day we were doing a grid. Did I mention that this mare had no withers? Well we jumped the first element and then she stopped, I sat up to pull her to the side and try again when she suddenly leapt over the second element and then bolted towards the top of the arena. The lack of withers and breastplate meant that the saddle had slid fully to her side and strange thing was I was still on. Here we were full tilt up the arena and I'm hanging on her side staring at her churning feet unable to make myself let go. I can hear my trainer yelling to let go let go and still I'm just clinging to her side. Finally I look forward and realize she is either going to jump the arena fence or turn and bang my head off fence posts as she gallops. At this point I finally get up the gumption to let go and manage to time it so that I fly between the rails of the fence and land in the paddock on the other side. Don't even ask me how I didn't wrap myself around a rail, guardian angels doing overtime. Funny conclusion, I'd landed in the paddock with a very aggressive horse so I quickly scrambled out, and then realized the air had been knocked out of me. Yep that's it, I wasn't physically hurt, but mentally I was shattered for a long time to come.
|Not scared of that rail|